Do What Now?
Sunday, April 30, 2006
Friday, April 28, 2006
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
I wake up a few hours ago. I check my mail so I can track my package and this is what I find. Check out this.
Okay. Let’s get a few things straight. Well, maybe not a few things. Don’t worry; this will be short, sweet, and straight to the point. It won’t take too much out of your daily routine.
If I had known you would have turned into the same person you were 3-4 years ago, we would have NEVER became friends again. And really, the shit you send back to me in that box was a tid bit amusing. For example, the Cold ticket stub. I mean really, what would I want with your concert ticket stub?
I find it odd that you only e-mail me out of the blue when you want to tell me how you send an e-mail for your own peace of mind or how you get pissed off when someone brings me up. Okay, so ‘ODD’ isn’t a good word for that. Perhaps the words ‘irritating’ or ‘frustrating’ fit a little better. Well you know what? Don’t bother…regardless of whether or not you had or hadn’t planned on sending any future e-mail. It’s all bullshit. And the fact that you actually get angry when my name is brought up is a little poignant.
Disregard any apologies I’ve ever said to you. You don’t deserve them. You over-reacted. Yes, maybe I was at fault for a few things, but the blame can’t all be placed on me. Other people and incidents played a role in the failure of this friendship. Yes, even you. But you know what? I did what was in my heart and the heart doesn’t lie, right? Of course it doesn’t.
So in conclusion, maybe I did this for my own “peace of mind.” You were wrong by e-mailing me just to tell me how you had “repressed issues” with me for “betraying” your trust. I really don’t care. I’ve been thinking about all this shit over the course of the last week and I will stand by my opinion and my opinion is simple…I didn’t betray your trust. I find it unsettling that you say I betrayed your trust but your best friend tried to get with your “love-interest” knowing you had a thing for her. And yet, I betrayed your trust? Just me? No one has ever done that? So apparently, I’m the only one. Well excuse me while I laugh my ass off.
Anyway, I’ve stopped all forms of communication with you. Don’t bother responding back with any smart-ass comments or whatever it is you wish to do. I will not receive them.
Farewell,
L****n
Pfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff.... bitch please. I'm not going to send back any response.... that would just be childish. It would only serve as fuel to the fire of this petty bullshit and besides she won't stop unless she has the last word anyway. If I started back with something she wins, and if she wins the terrorists win. Don't you see? That's what they want!.... What I will do however, is post my thoughts here, open for the world to see... because this is my turf.... my hood.
I gotta give it to her. This broad has balls. Big, huge balls. Or in Spanish.... pelotas grandes (I could be wrong, I used some cheap English to Spanish translator, so I hope I didn't offend any Spanish speaking peoples). I mean to just disrespect me like that... is just... it's just uncalled for is what it is. Plus no one fucks with me. No one. You fuck with me and you play with fire... or ice.... I'm like fire and ice, boy. Fire and ice. But that's cool. I really was cool with that broad too. All past aggressions... FORGIVEN! She had a clean slate in my book.... granted I still wanted nothing to do with her, but none the less her slate was clean. Not anymore though, she's tarnished it.
I thought we had come to an understanding. That we had come to a point that if we saw each other in public, we would at least perhaps nod, and exchange pleasantries.... well not anymore. If I ever see that broad out and about.... I'll pretend to not see her. That's right... I'll totally act like she's not ever there. OH.... Snap... that's right. I said it. BURNED! Hope she has some aloe vera handy when that happens for that massive burn! OH YEAH!
I sent the original message this response stemmed from a few weeks ago I thought. I had forgotten about it for the most part. I've had my mind on other things... like the fact that my video card is only 2 hours away in Atlanta.... yet it's just sitting there. For the last 5 hours when it could have been on it's way here. But it's not... which is really gay.
And what's up with the quotations around love interest up there like I said that shit or something. Those don't sound like my words. Too umm... cliche for me. I know I could do better than that. I'm far more clever than "love interest". What's clever than that, I don't know. But I could probably think of something... I just don't want to right now.
She could have had it all... the polite head nod, the pleasant hello.... well no. That just wasn't enough. She had to go and send me this today..... the second most holy day of the week. I of course refer to the day after a new episode of 24 airs as the "second most holy weekday" with of course, Monday being the top. LONG LIVE BAUER POWER!
I wonder what Jack Bauer would have done had he gotten that e-mail. He'd probably look into the camera for a minute and squint and mumble something first, but after that he'd be a man of action. Somebody (i.e. NOT JACK BAUER) would most likely end up shot in the arm or the kneecap, because as we all know... when it comes to shooting people, Jack Bauer does not discriminate. He is an equal opportunity bad ass. He'll shoot ya... doesn't matter if you're a woman, or man, or a dog. He will fucking shoot you. Kinda like Dick Cheney... not in the bad ass sense... but in the sense that he will shoot any human being indiscriminately, regardless of gender, age, race, what have you.
Oh, Look at that. I did it again. Here I am going on about how bad ass Jack Bauer is when I was talking about something entirely unrelated. I'm sorry, sometimes the day after a new episode of 24 airs my mind just wanders. BAUER POWER!
Well it's time to end this. So in summation, ummm.... screw that broad, and Jack Bauer for President in 2008! GOD BLESS YOU ALL, AND GOD BLESS THE UNITED STATES of AMERICA!
But I suppose it's not that bad. It's only gonna be like this for a few more weeks. Well make that "week". I've found that my years of isolation have rendered me socially inept for the most part. I can still strike up a conversation with a stranger yet I just don't like to.
I'm a complicated cat when it comes to shit like that. It terms of "friends", I've had my more than my share, but it's very weird because they always come and go. It's a weird cycle. I'll have a group of friends... associates if you will... for a good period of time and slowly that group will dwindle to... well, none. I bitch and moan to myself about how I wish I had more time to myself whenever I have a good number of "associates" and then the time comes where I have more time to myself than I know what to do with. And it's weird because half the time you wanna just pick up the phone and call someone and just hang out, go do something... whatever. Point is, you just can't for some reason. For some reason, something inside you prevents you from picking up the phone and dialing. I've always been like that though. I know that I'm a pretty fucking fun guy when I want to be one. I know it to be true because people normally have a good time whenever I make a point of it to be entertaining and pleasant. However I can never get past the notion that no one would want to hang out with me. Don't call because you'll just embarrass yourself... or something. I don't really know. I don't see why anyone would want to spend time with me.... I think. I can compare my shitty little complex to a "Annie Hall" Woody Allen quote, "I would never want to belong to any club that would have myself for a member."
I think that sums it up pretty well. Some kinda weird self depricating..... something. That's me.
Sunday, April 23, 2006

This week is going to be the absolute BALLS. My ma is going to Florida with my sister. My brother is going with friends. My Step dad is going to Alabama. I got this whole place to myself for 3-4 days starting this Friday morning. My new video card should get here within the next 2-4 days so I'll have the entire weekend to sit at my computer in my underwear playing BF2 till my eyes bleed from the kick ass and smooth frame rate and realistic lighting and shadows. Kinda sad actually now that I really think about it.... but fuck that. I wanted a new card for a long time and I finally got it and what better way to enjoy it than sitting around half nude by yourself in the dark? Exactly.... nothing.
Also I exceeded my eBay estimate of $80 and came in at a cool $105.85. Not bad considering it's my first time selling something and I only sold half of the things listed.
Well I'm curious as to who you are. Who any of you are. I wish to know. Not because I'm some paranoid freak or something.... cuz I am totally not some freak.... for the most part. I just have a kick ass hit counter. But I would like to know what kind of people read this. I'm calling you out, all of ya's. And if you don't respond... then that makes all of you cowards.
E-mail me at StillSmokin60@hotmail.com if you read this. Tell me a bit about yourself, leave me some feedback on this thing. I want input dammit. If I'm gonna try to make a career out of writing I figure I might as well find out if I suck at it.
Saturday, April 22, 2006
Friday, April 21, 2006
Last night I ran by a homie's house and dropped off her birthday presents. I got her a card that you would give to your granddaughter.... WHAT? You can color it in. It's an interactive card. It was nice.... I also got her some candy that she enjoys, and then a box of slim fit tampons. That way when guys come over she can leave them out and they'll think she's really really tight. I always thought that would be a funny "joke" gift... turns out.... ehhhh not so much. Apparently most people find that "rude and in "bad taste". Screw them, what do they know?
Also.... 24 .... watch it. Because if you don't.... Jack Bauer will come to your house and personally break your neck. I've seen him do it. It's not pretty. You don't wanna see him on your door step with the Jack Sack in tow. That thing means your ass is grass son. I know it to be true because I also have a "Jack Sack". A "knapsack of Power" if you will. Sure some people may call it a "man purse"... but we all know what it really is.
REMEMBER PEOPLE - THE ONLY REASON YOU'RE STILL ALIVE, IS BECUASE JACK BAUER HASN'T KILLED YOU YET.
Monday, April 17, 2006
DO YOU LIKE COMICS? NO.... well I can't blame you. I don't really either. But there was a time when I did. I bought them and held on to them becuase I knew I could cash em in one day.
DO YOU LIKE VIDEO GAMES? WHO DOESNT? D.C. Lobbyists... other than that everyone.
DO YOU HAVE MONEY?
If you answered YES to at least 2... mainly the one about money though... then stop on by my little section of shit for sale on eBay
Paypal preffered. Money orders and cashiers checks work as well.
Taken from IMDB.com "Lohan Looks for Kabbalah Guidance" "Lindsay Lohan is turning to the Jewish mysticism of the Kabbalah in an effort to break away from her reputation as a wild child. The actress/singer admits she's sick of the perception that she's little more than a party girl and wants to be taken more seriously. She says, "I want people to know me for the work I'm doing, not for this party girl image." And she's hoping that the religion championed by Madonna, and dabbled with by pal Paris Hilton and Britney Spears, will help. She adds, "I am looking into Kabbalah." Lohan is also planning an awareness trip to Kenya later this year for the One Foundation charity, and she's planning to breakaway from teen movies by starring alongside Meryl Streep, Felicity Huffman and Jane Fonda."
OK... so you want to taken more seriously so you join some crazy, Hollywood, Madonna sponsered, fad version of Judaism because you want to be taken more seriously? Does anyone else see the irony in that? I know when I see the next photo of Lindsay Lohan on the cover of People, and she has on her little red Kaballah bracelet, I'll know to take her seriously then.
WHY WILL NO ONE TAKE THIS GIRL SERIOUSLY? maybe it's her titty hanging out
Plus.... I mean come on... we all know Meryl Streep is over rated as hell. I mean, I think that's one thing that we can all agree on, right?
Saturday, April 15, 2006
I know... I know. Quite shocking. I was bored earlier so I went out to a local book store and perused the aisles until something caught my eye. That something was the hysterically brilliant "America (the book) - A Citizen's Guide to Democracy Inaction". I'm a huge "Daily Show" fan and I adore political satire, so I've been meaning to check this out for a while now but... I don't, shall we say, like to read books. That's not to say I don't enjoy reading... I do, just not from a book. But none the less, I picked it up and I'm enjoying it heartily. Very funny. I never thought I'd laugh out loud reading a book... I have at various articles and essays and what not, but not a book... which clearly shows how many books I've read.
I'd like to share some of this book's biting wit with you. And now, if I may, a few passages from "America (the Book)".
"Jefferson, you're on the two. Hamilton? You get the ten. I'm calling dibs on the one. That's all me, baby. What's that, Adams? You wanted the one? All right, that's it: You don't get to be on anything. That's right, I'm taking back the quarter. Anyone else want to complain? I didn't think so"
- George Washington, 1789
"Now, some have argued that Columbus actually discovered the West Indies, or that Norseman had discovered America centuries earlier, or that you really can't get credit for discovering a land already populated by indigenous people with a developed civilization. Those people are Communists. Columbus discovered America."
"The pen is mightier than the sword, if it has been dipped in deadly poison and is thrown from ten feet away. But really, you're better off with a sword."
- Benjamin Franklin, Poor Richard's Almanac (first draft)
Very funny stuff. Anyone who watches the Daily Show would love this book... or anyone who sees today's government as the jumbled, bi-partisan, bitch fest that it more often than not tends to come off as. And now in closing... A presidential fun-fact!
Did you know that... "Millard Filmore, our 13th president, lived for eighteen years with a pair of magical talking cats, who for reasons known only to them insisted on calling their human master "Mr. Norris." Denise, the female of the pair, was also influential in the foreign policy of the Filmore Administration, a period later dubbed by historians as "The Era of the President Who Was Batshit Insane."
Thursday, April 13, 2006
Remember people, the only reason you're still alive is becuase Jack Bauer hasn't killed you yet.
Fast and Bad
Saturday, April 08, 2006

Indeed it does, just ask White House Press Secretary, Scott McClellan. The last time you heard a man repeat himself this much you had to pull a string hanging out of his back. No matter what you may throw at Scott, he's just going to swat it down with the same phrase over and over again. This week gave us the Democrats and their "Crass Politics" as well as the love able old favorite "It's a policy of this administration not to comment on any on going investigations". Ahhh yes, who could forget that classic. Seriously... after repeating that phrase over 21 TIMES in under an hour's time, who the fuck could possibly forget it?
No matter what the topic of the day may be, rest assured that this man will find a way to not answer any of your questions. Even when confronted on the spot with physical evidence, this man will find a way to weasel out of it.
Here's an example.
The following was taken from the official White House Press Briefing Transcripts.
QUESTION - I understand the reason why you thought it needed to be declassified, because of the debate at the time. The question was, when was it declassified. And you were asked that day, when -- the question was, "When was it actually declassified?" And you said, "It was officially declassified today."
If it had been officially declassified on July 18, 2003, then 10 days before, when the information was given out, it was still classified at the time.
MR. McCLELLAN: Again, you're going back to an assertion that is made in a filing related to an ongoing legal proceeding when you talk about the second part of your question. There is no way for me to separate that question and talk about this issue without discussing an ongoing legal proceeding. And I can't do that. We have a policy that's been established, and I'm obligated to adhere to that policy.
Q But answer the question, it's a factual question.
MR. McCLELLAN: Yes, but you can't separate that question from the legal proceeding --
Q Was it declassified that day --
MR. McCLELLAN: -- because of one of the assertions that was made in the filing.
Well, you can go back and look at comments that were made at that time. That was when it was --
Q Those were your comments.
MR. McCLELLAN: -- that was when it was publicly released at the time. I haven't looked back at exactly what was said at that time.
Q Well, let's be really clear about this. It says right here on July 18th, "When was it actually declassified?" Mr. McClellan, answer, "It was officially declassified today." Is that correct?
MR. McCLELLAN: Again, you're asking me to get into the timing. I'm not backing away from anything that was said previously -- that's when the document was released, so that's when it officially --
Q They don't say "released." They say "declassify."
MR. McCLELLAN: I know, Jim. Let me tell you. That's when it was officially released. So I think that's what I was referring to at the time. I'd have to go back and look at the specific comments, but I'm not changing anything that was said previously, so let me make that clear.
Q But if you were --
MR. McCLELLAN: Now, secondly, the question you're going to, again, relates to the timing of when certain information was declassified --
Q I'm not going to that question --
MR. McCLELLAN: Well, but there's no way you can separate that question out from the ongoing legal proceeding --
Q Scott, you are very careful with your words here. I think if you wanted to say "released," you would have said "released." You said, "declassified."
MR. McCLELLAN: Okay.
Q Well, what does that tell --
MR. McCLELLAN: That's when the information was released publicly.
Q Scott, did you not know --
MR. McCLELLAN: But there was --
Q That's not what --
MR. McCLELLAN: Now, for the National Intelligence Estimate, Jim, it did go through a declassification process; you are correct. And the information was carefully looked at by the intelligence community before the portions of the National Intelligence Estimate were made available to the public --
Q But, Scott, you said, "declassified." If it's declassified on that day, it wasn't declassified before. And you're saying you're sticking to -- you're not taking back anything you said before, and what you said that day is it was officially declassified.
MR. McCLELLAN: I'd be glad to take a look at exactly what I said, and I'll do that.
Q You didn't say -- I mean, we've got that here --
MR. McCLELLAN: I can't do that here in this room right now, but I'll be glad to take a look at it --
Q Then why are you saying you're not backing up from anything if you --
MR. McCLELLAN: Well, what I'm saying is that -- I think what I was referring to is the fact that that was when it was made available to the public. So all that information is officially declassified at that point.
Q Then why are you saying you won't back off anything you said before if, in fact, we have transcripts here where you say that's when it was officially declassified? Are you still saying that's when it was officially declassified?
MR. McCLELLAN: That's when it was made available to the public. So it's officially --
Q When was it officially declassified?
MR. McCLELLAN: -- so it's officially declassified at that point. I think we're talking past each other a little bit. I'll have to go back and look at the specific transcript -- and I'll be glad to do that -- and we can talk about it further later.
Q Okay. When was it officially declassified?
MR. McCLELLAN: Again, in terms of the timing of when information may have been declassified, that gets into a question relating to the legal proceeding in a filing that was made by Mr. Fitzgerald earlier this week.
Q What were you referring to on July 18th, then? Was that the official release, or official declassification?
MR. McCLELLAN: Well, that's what I'll have to check. I'll have to go back and look. But my sense is, and my recollection is -- while we're sitting here talking about it is -- I was referring to the fact that was when it was officially declassified for the public.
There it is ladies and gents. Pure indisputable evidence that proves once and for all... Scott McClellan has huge balls. How else could one man stand there and dispute his own words which are a matter of record at this point? Balls.... big ones. Or maybe he just doesn't have a soul. Besides having massive balls, how else could one stand there and weasel out of giving anything resembling a straight answer? I mean every man makes a choice in the morning of how he's going to earn a living and this is his. He's a "fat little whore of a human being". Don Imus' words people... not mine.

It really just is frustrating. I mean I sat there Friday and watched this Press Briefing for over an hour and it just made me scream and want to pull my hair out. The way he [and other members and agents of this administration] can just stand there and refuse to take any accountability for anything what so ever is just astonishing as well as annoying and aggravating as hell. Makes you just wanna put your fist through your screen. How that man sleeps at night I will never know.
I assume to be a White House Press Secretary you have to have something... shall we say... not right with your brain. It would seem at some point in these individuals development, they missed out on developing what we commonly refer to as a "conscious". Surely they must lack a conscious, how else could one sit there and lie to a room full of people, staring them in their faces with their fat little beady eyes? I can't lie to save my life and if there was any justice in this world, ol' Scotty boy would be forced to for his.